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Dancing is who I am, it heals me.

I am not sure what Ashley means by that, "Dancing is who I am, it heals me" but she said that to me the other day. She has told me in the past that dancing helps her forget her liver disease but she has never said that dancing heals her.

Ashley is not a natural dancer, she isn't graceful but she most certainly does not have two left feet. She has problems spotting when she turns, she has problems pointing her toes when she leaps, and she has hard landings after leaping. But Ashley is extremely flexible and even though she has problems with pointing her toes when leaping, she has beautiful feet when she dances.

In the last two years, I have seen such growth in Ashley's dancing ability. Each day Ashley learns to love dance even more. I was afraid that pulling Ashley out of the dance company would have an adverse affect on her dance but if anything pulling her out of company makes her try harder to be a better dancer. After all, her goal is to be back in the dance company next year. And if we can financially swing it, she will be back as a Studio 5D Fifth Dimension Dancer by fall.

Ashley knows what she needs to do to be a better dancer and we are working on that at home and privately. She really wants to dance. Give her a choice to dance or not dance and the answer is always dance. Ashley tells me that her dream with the dance company next year is to either do a duet or a trio, I hope next year she will be ready to make her dreams come true.

One of the things I have noticed about Ashley is that she dances beautifully when she doesn't think about it; when she is relaxed. Watching her dance reminds me of the show, Flash Dance, where the main character would do phenomenal dance techniques without formal training. There is a scene where the main character is standing in front of a window (I think) and does this beautiful, graceful pirouette. That's Ashley; she will stand in front of the TV and without thinking do a beautiful graceful double pirouette. Her spotting is on target, her hands are graceful and elegant and she has this look of complete peace. It's like she is dancing from the soul.

Maybe that's what Ashley means when she says "dancing is who I am, it heals me." Maybe she means that it heals her soul.

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